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[07 Feb 2005|07:04pm]


i'm putting this journal to rest because i never update it

luckily-- i have a more active account. and it's not friends only anymore.

feel free to add it.

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[28 Oct 2004|09:07am]

yeah it kinda sucks. but for first attempts i'm pleased.

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[16 Oct 2004|09:44pm]
so it turns out he was still fooling around with other people while we were dating. i can't believe him. he's dispicable. i can't believe i trusted him. now i'm just incredibly angry. i'm such an idiot, i've wasted so much of my life on someone who didn't care about me at all. i loved him. yet he cheated on me. why does fate always screw me over. i give up on love. it's not worth it. and guys can't be trusted. i feel like crying except i don't cry.
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[16 Oct 2004|01:24pm]
i'm currently in the worst mental/emotional state i've ever been in.

first i get informed that DJ cheated on me with some fucker named marty. i ask dj, and he said that marty and him had a thing before dj and i were dating. i don't know if this is true or not, b/c everything happened in a relatively short time span.

as if that wasn't enough, i then find out he also fooled around with MY EX, drew, who is repulsive, btw. that made it even worse. and then he had the audacity, after fooling around with marty and drew (hell, he might still have been fooling around with them), to tell me that he misses me and would like to see more of me. i can't believe it. things were a lie from the start, and idc what they developed into, it doesn't change the past. and people don't change... they don't... how can i trust someone like that.

and then he makes an lj update, after realizing that i've found, pretty much saying 'fuck you alex, we'll talk later, and i'm glad i messed around with those other people.' ha. that alone is enough.

i'm so indescribably hurt and angry and confused and disgusted.
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[12 Oct 2004|09:39pm]

he has no purpose really... just a little dude making a toast to toast. yeah

i'm weird. deal.

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[11 Oct 2004|09:30pm]
this journal isn't dead.

i just do'nt know what to put in it.

i think from now on, whenever i draw/write/photograph somehting artistic or just amusing, i'll put it in this account. yeah. i like that. yessss
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[03 Aug 2004|01:24am]

if any of you undertand this-- you're my hero

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i was baaaaaaaaad tonight [03 Aug 2004|12:37am]
i was such a naughty boy tonight-- i did so many things my mother would frown upon...

i came home laaate
i drank some wine
i was gay

lol, in your face mother! bwhahah
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[27 Jul 2004|02:39am]
sooo... remember DJ? the guy who i obsessed over and then suddenly stopped writing about?

yeaaah, he's (more or less) back. we've hung out a couple times in the past week.

it's been fun. fun indeed.
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[16 Jul 2004|12:41am]
[ mood | restless ]

i seldomly update this journal. but since i've been accumulating more and more friends i shall update more frequently.


- i broke up with drew. he was a little distraught i'd say. eh. we didn't have anything in common. at all. we couldn't even carry on a conversation, and he didn't feel like the silence was awkward. wtf? plus he had some emotional problems, and i lack the PH.D in pyschology to help him.

- i recently went to chicago and bought a really cool Beret. I also went to Jamba Juice. anyone else heard of Jamba Juice?

- i have senior pictures in about a month... this is bad. this means for 1 month i won't be able to have colorful hair. plus in a month, my hair will be too long for senior pics and i'll have to get it cut again.

- i got a 5 on my AP Euro final

- some gay guy from xy.com is trying to make me meet him and his bf. they seem like nice people but a) i'm typically not good with strangers, b) i don't want to meet gay people just cuz they're gay, and ... i had another raeson but forgot it. whoops.

the end.

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[09 Jul 2004|03:12am]
timmyboi  redid my journal!
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[09 Jul 2004|01:26am]
what's a good weight for someone just under 5'7? i'm not worried about my weight by any means i just have no idea what's normal and i couldn't find anything online.

also. i got a haircut. a while ago. meh. i'll post some pics sometime. maybe.

i was at my friends house reading somehting on the internet... 59 deceptions in Farenheit 9/11. it was hilarious. propaganda. counter-propaganda. oh three cheers for american society.

i ran again tonight. that makes 4 days in a row. my 'run every day' plan is coming true. yayy.

i bought a wristband the other day. i normally dont like wristbands but it was only 50 cents!! fitty cent! and no tax! 'no tax?' you ask. that's right. i got it from one of those stupid gum-ball machines that vend toys. a fifty cent wristband! it's so cool too. many cuz it was only 50 cents. i'm not frugal by any means, in fact i waste my money frivolously. but i like bargains when i see 'em.

oh. and my friend came back from spain. he bought me a 3 foot sword. !! ITS SO AMAZING.

this concludes the randomness.
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[07 Jul 2004|02:11pm]

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[06 Jul 2004|06:42pm]
how do you know when you're fully over someone?
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another entry about drew [26 Jun 2004|12:18pm]
yesterday we went down to summerfest. i forgot how much summerfest kinda sucks, so we left around 9. then we played tennis a bit at some park in Elm Grove i had never been too. it was so much fun :) afterwards we just sat in his car and made out for a while-- but that got interrupted when his mom called and said he had to come home (it was about 11 by then). darn. his mother is...very protective... which makes being the boyfriend difficult sometimes. oh well. i absolutely love spending time with drew. we're going to see a movie on sunday and then he's coming over on tuesday. :D but then he's leaving town for a week :/ he r0x0rz
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[23 Jun 2004|03:19pm]
[ mood | nefarious ]

There are WAY too many of these attractiveness rating communities on LJ. It's so dumb. Anyone can be dubbed hot depending on the caliber of the community. Having so many is redundant, and what REALLY bothers me is the fact that in MOST of these communities the founder himself is NOT attractive. But that's enough of my animadversion towards LJ's plague.

I got 12 hours of sleep last night and was still compelled to nap another two hours this afternoon. :D wow. I've been thinking about Drew pretty much non-stop since last night. I think we're going to hang out Friday, possibly tomorrow also. I get paid this Friday-- that means I will be getting a haircut, and i-pod, and probably some clothes.

I have to work 6 hours tonight. I don't want to because I'll be working with this hideous, brainless dolt. I'm going to be such an asshole to him-- but that's alright because I'm the asst. manager and he's going to be fired soon anyways.

Got my report card recently. I'm pleased. All A's making my final GPA a 4.05. For the record the weighting scale is very weak, for each semester of an AP class you take you get an addition of 0.025 added to your GPA. Next year is going to kick ass.

I'm almost done reading The Count of Monte Cristo. It's a VERY good book, I really like Dumas' style. The movie is much different... I like the book better because it makes more sense, but the adaptation makes for a better movie. Plus Fernon (Count Morcef) is hot in the movie. Once I finish TCoMC I'm gonna finish The History of Philosophy and then Good Omens. Then I gotta finish The Universe in a Nutshell.

Ha. I just wasted your time rambling. Eat it.

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[22 Jun 2004|11:13pm]
i just had THE most wonderful date with Drew. oh man. SUCH a good kisser :) i'm so happy around him. he picked me up then we went to Cousin's for some dinner. then we sat and talked about astronomy.... HOW COOL IS THAT?! A GUY WHO I CAN TALK TO ASTRONOMY ABOUT!!!!!!!! SDLFJSDLKJTOIWREOIRUTUSLKFJ. amazing. then we left to go kidnap his friend liz, who he wanted me to meet. she was very... manic, as he said. anyway, that was an interesting hour. then we left... and went and walked around wirth park and talked a bit. then we just sat in the car a while and kissed. thennnn we left the parking lot and went to a much more romantic place... it's this landing at the top of a hill that overlooks a lot of the town and we stayed there for another hour and a half or so. he is so unbelievably wonderful. i'm so happy.
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[17 Jun 2004|10:14am]
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[16 Jun 2004|11:53pm]
well DJ's history. ugh, whatever. he's pretty much been deleted from my life....

leaving room for.... << drum roll >>

DREW! yes. there is a guy named drew who is sooooo cool. such good boyfriend material. we've been on 2 dates in like 1 week. i'm so happy around him :) we kissed a bit last date. i think i'm hanging out with him again soon :) i want him to be my boyfriend
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[06 Jun 2004|06:51pm]
why am i so shy? why am i insecure? i need to work on that.
it's weird cuz i'm really not shy and insecure around some people. i think my problem is that if people think i'm shy and insecure they expect me to act that way and if i acted differently then idk how people would react. idk. whatever. grrr.
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